I have been pleasantly surprised by the numerous comments and emails I have received encouraging us to be happy. I am not surprised I have received a few that were not so uplifting. Anyone who has gone through something similar to what we have, understands exactly how we feel and some of you who haven't, frankly don't have a clue. I love those of you who don't understand and though you remind us to use caution, you say go for it! When I met Jessica in person and we had our first chance to talk face to face, we felt like old souls who had always known each other. I knew some of you would not understand but was ready to fight for her and that is why I wrote about her. I didn't have to share and I knew there would be some ridicule and judgment but she is worth it. I have not "gotten over" Kaci and I never will but she is gone and God is tugging at my heart again. Jessica has so much to offer me and I feel like even though our paths have taken dramatic turns, our path has become one. This doesn't mean we will get married tomorrow and she does live in Michigan so we can't exactly move fast even if we wanted to. Let's not forget we also would have 7! kids together ages 8,7,6,5,3,1 &1:) Yes, Jada and Josh are 3 months apart! We have been cautious from the beginning and didn't share our relationship with our kids until we met because we wanted to be sure there was a spark. The kids don't need any more disappointment in their lives! When I told Tate and Mya that I met someone who would love to be their mom some day, I saw so much joy in their eyes that it melted my heart. They loved the fact that she had 4 kids and couldn't ask enough questions. Kaci was such a great mom to them that they have had a void in their lives for many months. Truth be told, she has been missing from their lives since April and wasn't really the same the 9 months prior because her pregnancy with Jada made her so sick. The kids were ready to move away and they didn't care where as long as it was soon, Christmas sounded good to them:) And for those of you who are wondering about John and Deena or any of those closest to me, they miss Kaci as much as me but want me to be happy and trust that I would never do anything rash without God leading me. I sat down with all of my family including Kaci's mom and dad, before I ever met Jessica. Those moments were bitter sweet for all involved and I'm sure there will be many more that are the same. None of them doubt my motives but I respect them enough to seek their approval. On another note, this blog will end soon. This chapter of my life will close in order for the next one to be played out. It doesn't mean I will quit writing, it will just be on another site:) Let's not forget, "if you can't write anything nice, don't write anything at all".